Farewell to MCR

In Uncategorized on March 27, 2013 at 6:03 pm
Farewell to MCR

Today, on my last day of class of my four year undergaduate degree, the same month I turned 24, I learned that My Chemical Romance has ended. This may not be big news to you and maybe it shouldn’t be to me – I had stopped listening to the band a few years back- but it still made me feel… something.

For me My Chemical Romance, who am I kidding- MCR, were huge. From about the age of 15 up to 18 they were it. I don’t even know what ‘it’ is. MCR represented so much to me and my group of friends at that time. I think I’ll never again have a group that felt as close and as necessary to my life as they did. We wore the black t-shirts and the nail varnish and for a school in rural Kerry I guess we felt a bit on the outside. The band may have had dark lyrics and coffin-loads of dramaticism but for me they were never about being sad or ‘emo’. To me they were fun and expressive. An excuse to grab some friends together and howl along to perfectly over the top lyrics for the hell of it – as we did on a particular youth group trip to Belgium. It was about feeling different but realising that that didn’t matter a bit.




I stopped listening to the band naturally as I got older. I guess I grew out of them. The black t-shirt girl started listening to Fleetwood Mac, going out socially and wearing colour. Right now I’m wearing five different colours of nailvarnish- but then the band also embraced colour in their later years. Being different as a teen seemed to be about wearing black. Now it’s about just doing what makes you happy, because after a while you realise everyone is different, but not everyone is as different to you as you’d imagined. Hence my current clown nails.

So My Chemical romance have ended, and I’m glad. Now they will always be mine, belonging to a special stage in my life and I don’t have to awkwardly facethat music in adulthood or explain why they aren’t on my ipod. Though for that matter, why aren’t they? Gerard Way’s end letter state’s ‘we were spectacular’, and you know what? For me and for so many others – they were.

Thanks for for providing the soundtrack to some difficult and amazing years, guys.

So long and goodnight.


One small stepped for LinkedIn, One giant leap for me-kind

In Uncategorized on November 13, 2012 at 6:55 pm

So it is upon me.

The snugly cocoon that is university can only protect me for so long now. The fortifications are cracking from outside pressures and my own internal squirming. The other day I joined Linked In – another layer of childhood crumbled. Linked In, endless revising of CVs, researching postgrads, finally giving in to twitter. These are of my own making.

The outside pressures include the fact that this BA course is ending soon. So, so soon. I have been nice and protected in here for 4 years now. Having a timetable, knowing where I’ll be the following year, moving on to a – relatively- new topic every 4 months. Nice intellectual freedom. It’s all coming to an end. Out beyond the sticky,silky,hard, soft ( I don’t know, what do cocoons feel like, am I a moth or a butterfly? Has this metaphor been stretched too far? Like.. say.. a silken cocoon thread… enough!!!)

Beyond the boundaries of this course lies uncertainty. Now, of course, I am being dramatic. It’s not like I have no idea what’s out there in THE REAL WORLD. It’s not like that place is so radically different that my mind will be blown, but still. Forgive my melodrama and indulge me for a moment. Linked In is the beginning of the end but a beginning nonetheless! Postgraduate study is an attractive option. A change of direction is appealing too. So is the chance to put all I’ve learned to work, get some good experience, maybe even- whisper it- earn some cash! What about working abroad? The security of 4 years of study was great but I remember a time when I looked on it with dread. Stuck in one area for 4 years- Hell no! Clearly I adapted, a bit too well maybe.

Now it’s time to remember that having multiple options is a good thing. A very good thing. Seriously, too many options can never really be a bad thing. So it’s time I faced next years uncertainty head on and say ’I have no idea where I’ll be this time next year…awesome’.

Things I’m gonna miss about college

In Uncategorized on October 17, 2012 at 1:39 pm

I hate to sound like every college prospectus going here, but college is great. There genuinely are loads of opportunities for those lucky enough to acquire student status. And I don’t just mean eating all the pizza you want, sleeping in, sleeping around, drinking the very best of cheap beer and student discounts.
“But surely”, you cry, “that’s what studenthood is all about!”

Now that I face the prospect of finishing up my time in university I’ve realised that there’s a whole pile of things I’m going to miss like hell. Things I wish I had taken advantage of sooner. so I’m going to create a list of genuinely golden opportunities to be had at college. For those of you who still can or who would like to seek them out. Most of these things are out there in the big bad world, but in college they are right at your doorstep, all but begging for your attention

1. The Library

Wait, don’t stop reading yet! Many students come to see the library as a place of drudgery, poor air-conditioning and stacks of textbooks, but there is so much more to it.

So obviously, there are textbooks. But even if you’re not that keen on your course work or don’t consider yourself bookish – you have other interests right? So does the Library. Name virtually any general topic and the library will have something on it. I went for a proper browse around the library this year. (In all my years at NUIG I had never strayed too far from my home in the humanities). If you find yourself with some spare time I highly recommend going for a wander. Far too many of us never venture from our subject areas but remember: nothing is off limits!

Okay some things are off limits, but generally…

I found myself between ailes of books on Harappan Civilisation* and a substantial section on something called the Sutton Hoo Ship Burial.

I have no idea what this is!

I should find out!

Now maybe this will only appeal to the innately curious or those who are bothered by personal weakness in general knowledge (TblQz4life), but there will be section for you too. Last week I found myself in the film section and spent perhaps a little too much and not altogether spare time reading about mise-en-scene* in popular film. In the English Section you’ll find anything from Daphne Du Maurier to JK Rowling. Among the visual arts you’ll find Picasso, Pollack and Rembrandt alongside graphic novels like Watchmen. Yes, the library has comics. Comics matter too.

Maybe you’ve always had a secret desire to learn about the mating habits of the Table Mountain Rock Dassie, maybe you want to know what the Nietzsche’s deal is with God? Where did marriage come from? How does a radio work? What’s that little hollow under  your nose called?  Why do American sitcoms say you can’t wear white after Labor Day? What is Labor Day?  How did young Karl Marx have such an awesome beard? All of these answers and more can be found in the library. Except for the beard thing – that’s just a mystery.

So next time you have an afternoon off and you think you’d like to enlighten yourself or find out more about Witchcraft in Northern England, pop into the library. It’s free.

*I’m not gonna tell you what this is, Go To The Library.

Check out the K-Marx beard – it’s a sight to behold.